Once Upon a Time...

Once upon a time, I was an avid blogger and had a new post just about every week. Sometimes more...heh. 

Anyway, life kinda went crazy for me. BUT guess who is baaack!!!

Admit it, you missed me. 

Okay maybe not but I'm back whether you like it or not! Muahahaha

So not much has changed honestly. Justin is still in his first area loving it of course. A little frustrated with is companion but they're working through it. 

I, on the other hand, am no longer in my first area. 

I am now an offical student at BYU-I. 

College is basically the best thing that has ever happened to me. It's amazing how busy it keeps me. Two weeks have already gone by and Justin is almost at 6 months!! WHAAAA?

(Insert GIF of minions here)

It's kinda crazy to think that we are 1/4 of the way done with this journey. It seems like it has been dragging on but looking back, it doesn't seem like any time at all. However, it has been far from easy.

Things aren't the same. I think about Justin every day. The littlest things remind me of him, but I'm kinda numb to the fact that he's gone. It has been so long since I've heard his voice or seen his face that he seems like a dream. He doesn't have time to email back and forth on his P-day so I don't really get to hear from him much then. But I am very lucky to have gotten an email every week since he left. Which is totally awesome. I just wish he seemed more like a real person. For the first time, he told me that he wished he could come home just to see me, hold me, and talk to me about all of his frustrations. It kinda broke my heart. He has stayed so strong so far and he still is but this was the first time he actually told me how upset he really was. 

It kills me to hear how frustrated he is when I can't be there with him to talk it out. It's hard for both of us. But we are both learning a ton because of it. 

I really miss him a ton though. Being here at school has made things slightly worse. I find myself thinking about how much I want him here with me. Which is not good. Haha I want to go on dates but not with just anyone. 

I just want him. 

Well, not that I've had myself a little pitty party and got all the emotions out, I've gotta resume my crazy college life. P.s. Being a music major is hard. Theory class will be your worst nightmare. 

That is all. :) I'll try to post more often but there's no guarantees. It all depends on how much my teachers like us...

Anyway, it's good to be back. 

Until next time! :)