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6 MONTHS

This has been the craziest 6 months of my life.

Here's a small glimpse of the craziness:

-Said goodbye to the love of my life for the next two years

-Spent countless nights lying in my bed awake thinking about him

-Moved to a new town

-Started college

-Felt more alone than ever before

-Felt happier than ever before

-Missed him SO. MUCH.

It has been so hard, but I can already see the blessings we are both recieving from being apart. I've said this before but distance truly does make the heart fonder.
When he was still here, he was just simply there. I didn't think much of it. I wish I would have really taken advantage of the time I had with him. When he left, I still wasn't very sure about my feelings for him. Everything had happened so fast and I wasn't sure if I was real and worth my time and attention. Now that he has been gone for a while, I have realized how much he really means to me. I just miss him so much! I didn't think it was possible to miss a human being so much.

Let's just talk for a second about how terrible last night was. I miss him almost every day but last night just really got to me. I normally just think, "Man, I miss him and I super wish he was here." but man, last night I was a hot mess. It was one of those nights that the wrong song just happened to play on iTunes and then my roommate/cousin decided to go out with her almost boyfriend. I just lost it. And then I just couldn't quite compose myself after that.

SO. BAD.

I don't get it. I was perfectly chill until this kid came into my life. All of a sudden, I have all these feelings and it's like I'm a girl or something. 

Terrible, I know. 

Anyway, yeah. Last night was not good. 

BUT

I woke up this morning and I was all

Literally the first thing I did was send a snapchat to Emily that said, "SIX MONTHS!!!!!"

I only have to do this 3 more times...

But don't tell me I have 18 months left because I will want to die. Just stick with the whole 1/4 of the way done... :)

Right now, that seems totally doable. But ask me tomorrow and I will probably be a mess again...haha It's kinda funny. The days seem to drag on but all of a sudden it's been six months and I feel on top of the world. A direct quote from Justin really explains it:

"The days feel like weeks and the weeks feel like days."

It is so true though. This waiting for a missionary thing is the weirdest thing that I have ever done.

On a complete different note, I was on my way home tonight and I got a message from Justin on Facebook. (Is that allowed? I don't know, but he keeps doing it and I'm not complaining....)

Anyway, all he said was, "May I just say.....I love you so much. :) <3"

Literally made my day that much better. So perfect.

I just love that kid. :) I just can't wait until he's mine forever.