It's Alright to be Happy

We all have our own struggles. I can always come up with quite a few things that are far from ideal in my life (the main one being away from Justin), but it's a lot harder to find things to be happy about. 

However, these past few days, it has been easier to find reasons to be happy for whatever reason. 

Justin has been out a little under 11 months (internal scream). That's almost half  way done. I remember when my cousin had been out for half of her mission. And now she's home. Of course she was only out for 18 months, but still! Time really has flown by. That's a few things to be happy about. 

Just the other day I had the realization that it had been 11 months since I had a face-to-face conversation with Justin, a hug, a kiss, a walk around the river in our hometown, his hand to hold, 11 months since I had him physically in my life. 322 days ago, I said goodbye to him. Hopefully for the last time ever. 

*There's another happy thought! No more goodbyes!*

It has been really hard to wrap my mind around how long 11 months really is. It makes me kinda proud of myself that I've made it this far. To be completely honest, I didn't think I would. I gain more respect daily for the girls that are even a day ahead of me in their wait. Props to each and every one of you. What we are doing is no easy task. 

Thank goodness for Monday (did I really just say that?) and the mailman. 

As I look back at these last 11 months, it gives me so much more motivation to keep going! Yes, it has been hard. There hasn't been a day that goes by that I haven't thought about him and how much I want him back here with me, but I know that we are both doing what is best for us at this point in our lives. We have both already grown so much. I can't wait to see what these next 13 months bring.

I am so lucky to have someone to miss. It doesn't matter how alone I feel. I always know that there is someone 2000 miles away who misses me just as much as I miss him.